Log in

Destruction Leads to a Very Rough Road [entries|friends|calendar]
Bloody Hell

[ website | Facebook ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

It's been a long time [30 Jul 2010|10:37pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Is it just me, or are people, even in this great state of Massachusetts, are too roped in to their socioecomic woes and technological conviences that they can't be arsed to know who's running for govenor?

Speakig of technological conviences

heard today on the news a woman crashed her bike into a forest and was lost. Luckily she had her phone with her...
so she readily tweeted the forest that she was in and saying that she was in an accident, asking people to call the police for her

instead of saving all the trouble and dial 911 herself.
and of course, the news praised her for her use of the innovation of social networking-
but I mean COME ON

3 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

[31 Dec 2007|11:47pm]
[ mood | angsty ]


Happy 08 to those who still read this shitpile. HA.

Where Did Life Go...

?! [10 Nov 2007|03:47am]
[ mood | overwhelmed ]

I just realized...

I have no. idea. what I'm doing here. At all.

2 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

... [04 Oct 2007|10:06pm]
[ mood | thinking... ]

Can you believe it? This shit acutally makes me happy.

Think about it: Happy. I almost forgot what that was for a few years.

2 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

...665: The Neighbor of the Beast. [15 Sep 2007|08:20pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

Well, at least I'm still reminded of home.

Walking down the brick highway, the cold air blowing in my face because the only fleece I brought got food on it. Feeling alone.

The wonderful lonliness that I hadn't experienced in so long... a nostalgic empowerment I can only be given when sober.

Because no one calls. No one picks up. And I get confused about things. Sometimes I feel like I should stop trying.

But this feeling is just so nice, from four five years ago...
I didn't realize how much I missed me.

1 Guess| Where Did Life Go...

18 already...? [14 May 2007|03:18pm]
[ mood | blank ]

i wish i could go back to the time when these days felt as special as they are supposed to be.

1 Guess| Where Did Life Go...

[01 May 2007|10:10pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Well, she used to make me upset... you remember that last post.

But I had to sit next to her tonight and she made me feel... not miserable... just remorseful.
I remember the times when I was younger and we hated each other, but at least she acknowleged me as an aquaintence.
I remember it was the last night of overnight camp, and I was sitting on my bunk writing a letter to her with all of our inside jokes around the envelope to keep myself from crying.
I remember when we used to be close.

I've stopped the anger and envy, but taken on a much more heart-tearing feeling. She reminds me of how everyone changes, and people who I would have never lived without are a distant memory now. It rips at me now, temporarily overcompensating for my hopeful college future.
Things aren't the same after she changed, after so many others changed.

Don't get me wrong, I know it's human nature for people to change and for teenagers to obsess over it... but even focused on one person it seems all the more devistating. Sort of like-- I'm still not sure why Lily's death struck me so hard and still does.

But I'm rambling now.

7 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

Happy birthday to... my livejournal! [09 Apr 2007|10:46am]
[ mood | blank ]

It's that infamous time of year again-- my livejournal's birthday. And would you believe it, it's the first time in a good few months I've updated twice in one week.

The only reason I'm not as obsessed with this is because life kicked in... and I have more things to worry about than a blog-- which is different from social networking like facebook.

To celebrate, I'm including a duet poem written during none other than Russian Literature by myself and my awesome friend Jay (he's the italisized stanzas)

Eat your heart out, all you poet laurietsCollapse )

Now off to some stupid class.
So happy birthday, dear Livejournal... standing idly (or not so idly) by through thick and thin for five years (and maybe counting).

3 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

[06 Apr 2007|02:43pm]
[ mood | touched ]

Oh my god, I'm so sensitive....

I was watching Bam Margera's wedding on this website and I almost started crying.
I'm so happy for him, he totally needed a soulmate. It was so beautiful.

Best of luck to Bam+Missy

(off to work now)

1 Guess| Where Did Life Go...

Bored as fuck [18 Dec 2006|07:51pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Playin with my new iPod :D

I'm gonna do that whole put-it-on-shuffle-for-first-twenty-songs-and-write-comment-about-each-one thing. Maybe if anyone reads it they can say how much of a cool taste in music I have...


Here goes nothing.Collapse )

The end! Now let's see who cares.

3 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

Chronicles of a passing [15 Dec 2006|09:10pm]
[ mood | broken ]

I never expected the funeral home to smell sweet.

A big line of people before and ahead of me, like a wave. Endless rooms of pictures of a little girl, that radiant little girl who was so greviously taken. At the end of each room I was afraid there'd be an open casket I'd have to look forward to.

All I had was the paper in my hand to keep me company, the last poem from me she would ever witness, my thoughts of her.

The scent was the strongest in the room where the body lay. But there was just a box-- every inch of that radiant, lovely, amazing young girl was in that urn. Just torn and burned to bits-- it hurt that such a life was squeezed into such a tiny little thing.

Her brother's embrace was unexpected and I'm not sure why, but very enjoyable. He was the one who recived my poem... and I hope the family likes it. But who knows if it acutally gave her life justice.

My broken hearts over everything have strewn my thoughts into non coherent strings... I don't want to eat anymore. It would be lovely to just die for the rest of the year and wake up on new year's day with a fresh coat of snow over this barren... place

Where Did Life Go...

[15 Dec 2006|04:14pm]
It's not enough that I"m a sensitive person. I genuinly feel for this girl and her family, and all the pain that's been coursing through this little town.

I walked my dogs and on my way back I picked up a rock, small but perfect in its own way. I carried it in my hand to keep it warm. I walked over to the mini bridge, pressed my lips against the rock and I prayed for her soul and strength for her loved ones (in that kiss). I threw it into the river... It probably would have meant more if it floated.

In other news...Collapse )
Where Did Life Go...

This is true. [05 Dec 2006|09:53pm]
[ mood | upset ]

I was sitting in front of her and I realized. I hated her.

I hated her looks, her clothing, her laugh, not because they were bad-- just because they were hers.
Years and years of knowing her and our undulating friendship, and for some reason the fact that we drifted apart caused me to hate her.

I hated from jealousy, I hated from everything possible... from pure existance, even.

She made me feel alone and awkward again, like those days from long long ago. I never wanted to go back there, and she did that by sitting in front of me. She made me feel talentless, stupid, worthless. She used to be a friend of mine. I burned for violence

Her presence, along with my aches, made me miserable. And I still am. I'm not in the mood to do anything-- eat, sleep, work, or even wake up tomorrow.

I would feel so much better if there was snow blanketing this barren land.

3 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

[11 Nov 2006|08:06pm]
So see_dog asked me to update and I did.

But it's the worst possible time, and how could I be happy when the presence of something to end is welling at my eyes and running down my cheeks.

So there's your update.
1 Guess| Where Did Life Go...

[08 Sep 2006|03:07pm]
Anyone remember Adam Echofni? Used to be here freshman year...

I just saw his dad or whatever on a webpage. I had totally forgotten about him until now.

Check it outCollapse )
3 Guesses| Where Did Life Go...

[24 Jul 2006|12:24am]
Trevor Fehrman=Drooooooooooooool
Where Did Life Go...

[21 Jul 2006|11:37pm]
((Woah, I'm acutally updating))

So I have another reason of why I suck at life.
Went to the mall today with Liz (yeah, I went out, oh em gee). So I went into A+F with some soda and I chugged a whole bunch. So I was standing next to this huge group of people--my plan was to belch as loud as I could.... but all that came out was this pathetic sounding burps.

It made me sad.

And so before I make an even greater fool of myself, I will resign for now.
Where Did Life Go...

[24 Jun 2006|11:56am]
Just so you know I"m all alive---

long time, no talk.

Dying of boredom in Baltimore-- but hell, at least it's summer vacation.

Not really in the mood for talking much.

'nuff said.

I'm fucking busting this joint
Where Did Life Go...

[25 May 2006|04:33pm]
To the Beloved class of '06--

Oh, where to start. I know, even after all the tears and the words I will never have enough room or energy to write what all of you mean to me.

I've lived here my whole life, so naturally, I've known you since preschool, and as a friend or aquantence, I've been with you as you grow. Soccer teams, O.M., D.I., Elementary School, etc. I lost touch with most of you all until high school, and when my eyes first went upon you I was happy you were in my life again, because you turned into wonderful people with amazing personalities that'll make me never. ever. forget you.

It is such a misery now that I took your presence for granted. You've graced my presence ever since the first weeks as a freshman-- classes, France, DYAD, wellness, Fountain. Some of you have taken to my romantic side over the past three years, and some of you I've just grown to be great friends with, being my foundation, my rock. Almost everything. It's going to be scary at the top and not having anyone to look up to as a resort. It'll be so lonely without you.

Each and every one of you are the most georgeous, beautiful, amazing people both inside and out, and I can't describe in words how much I've appreciated your presence, whether I know you or not. For God's sake, I've known ninety percent of you my whole life, you've all been with me, and pretty soon you're never going to be coming home.

When I looked at you down in the spot from the floor above I was dumbfounded. How could all of you be leaving like this? Is there not loss where there is love? Blows me away that you're finally going. After my whole. life. with some of you.

Your words, looks, humor, encouragement, laughs, looks, personality, quirkiness and presence will always leave a hole in heart from when you go. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself when you leave... not even my tears could heal my wounds.

I hope that-- you lead a good life, and that the seinors I've known all along--you know who you are-- will keep me in their memory.

Tout mon amour,
Marissa, '07.

[x-posted on lincolnsudbury]
Where Did Life Go...

[14 May 2006|05:07pm]
Cold+Not going to gym in two weeks+run=Tiiiired

But what the fuck, it's my birthday. Even if the whole damn state is flooding over.

1 Guess| Where Did Life Go...

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]